Nov. 22nd, 2011

Patience

Nov. 22nd, 2011 08:24 pm
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I work very hard to be patient.

I am patient by neither nature nor nurture.

Aquarians are flighty, high-strung, of a nervous and dramatic disposition. Fire horses love the excitement of action and the change it brings. Bears are unpredictable, jotun are chaos incarnate.

My family believes if they stop moving, stop striving, stop fighting, they will die. Literally die, like a shark who stops moving and can no longer breathe.

So my patience is a hard-won skill. It's a deity-taught skill; two of my deities of choice believe patience is an important part of their mandate.

But I've been losing my grip on patience lately. Just lots of little things like eroding away my capacity for BS like water torture; drip, drip, drip.

I find myself having to apologize to innocent bystanders or friends because I got snappy. I've been in an on again, off again argument with my beloved for a week now. And I have the intense urge to bite, break things and scream until I'm hoarse.

So over the Thanksgiving holiday, I'm going to look for my patience again. Because without it, I am an unpleasant person.

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